one profane thought

i never wanted to pen it down .... it is not another story but some few word that i  want to share .... with whom i dont knw .... consider this as my monologue.........this aint my facebook update or my gtalk status message because i never  want people to know ........ or  perhaps the best thing i could have done is  to have written it on a peice of paper and thrown it out of my window or rather burn it on second choice......... second choice the word is catchy and dicey , what is my life i some time  ponder ... what is it ? its impertinent .... to retrospect about my life  and immerse myself into memories is the thing that lame philosophers do .......... i dont belong to that school of thoughts..... and still here i am sitting infront of the computer and typing something into my defunct blog that had long been  inactive............ straight to the topic ............ my transition ................ from an idiot who never understood simple equation in class 4 and wanted to pursue music  to a kid who was half way inactive in class 8 ,to a lad  who was a favorite of class teacher in class 10 because he discovered pythagoras theroem all by himself .......... to a simpleton teenager who solved equation at a  much faster rate than his friends in class 11 to a teenager who calculated schrodinger's wave equation in class 12 and formulated neil bohr's atomic model during his P.T class ........... then he dreamt of becoming a scientist .........and ultimately turned to became an engineer ...... not under compulsion but because of rat race.......its natures' law they say............... and then ultimately eager to become a business person one day ..................... life has been full of twist and turns for me ..........no straight path here ...........life is full of surprises ...who knows it better than me ............ and here i'm halfway immersed into my self pity emotion and thinking how my ideals have changed over time ...from van gogh to beethoven to ramanujan to einstein to some british engineer who designed howrah bridge .......... and now howard hughes......and still thinking  and wondering who would come next ......